Simple Thing

Dont know where the confusion laid. Maybe I read the signs wrong but something inside tells me thats not the case. Feel foolish for keeping this up but I think it worth the energy. Foolish is the man that doesn't even try. Or is it Foolish is the man that keeps trying and failing? Why do we make things more complicated for ourselves? Don't know what it was but something inside me was touched. Was it because I heard the things I wanted to hear? Was it because I was desparately seeking to replace what I once had? Was I just yearning for Love? To feel wanted and needed? Sometimes I feel that I should just give up and accept it all. Is that my destiny, Lonelyness? Why can't I just be content and accept things and move on? Why? Sometimes I think I should follow logic and common sense, but then I think why shouldn't I follow my heart? So many roads so many paths that makes things so confusing. Simple Thing, where have you gone (http://www.keaneband.com)?

ALBERT

THE DISTANT OBSERVER

I can't help my self.
I would like to get closer and feel that what I see.
But then again there are things I did not see.

I should have known it was too good to be true.
That such a great soul
would not have a place in someones elses heart.

I feel the great loss.
And for that I do not understand,
how I couldn't obtain
the soul I yearned to touch.

For that I will have to settle.
And fill my souls content
as the distant observer.

ALBERT
________

If you don't want to rush it baby
Well then by all means don't
But I'm gonna wait for the day when
You see that it's me you wantI can see,
I can tell that you need me
You know that I need you too
So why on earth can't you ever let her go
Will you ever try anything new

http://www.martina-mcbride.com/lyrics/keepingmydistance.shtml

THE IRONY

Only in the South can you find this bit of Irony. Today is a national holiday honoring a civil rights leader, Dr. Martin L. King. Well as a state government employee we get many holidays today being one. Seems like governments observe anything and everything, seems like sometimes they want to just have another day off. Well the irony I speak of is that this week when we celebrate a leader of Civil Rights here in Texas we will also celebrate/honor (Wednesday) Confederate Heros who fought for state rights amoung them Slavery. Ain't that weird? The irony of celebrating 2 opposites, Only in the South!

ALBERT

Side note: I aint racist so please dont take this writing as such. I just thought it was so ironic and felt like writing about that. But then again I shouldn't appologize for my writing, I know who I am!

TOO LATE

Have you ever found a connection but the timing turns out bad? What a tragedy that there seems to be a connection between two people yet there is something that doesnt allow it to go further. I sit here wondering why am I too late. I lay at night wanting to know more. Wanting to feel the touch and complete the connection. The pain of the heart sends me crying thinking of what could have been. The passion overflows. I lay here sitting, thinking and dreaming yet Im afraid that I am too late!

http://www.minibite.com/oldies/borntoolate.htm

ALBERT

I TRY

Games, changes, and fears
When will they go from here?
When will they stop?
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together, babe
But we're not

I play it off but
I'm dreaming of you
And I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll keep my cool but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke (yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

Here is my confession
May I be your possession?
Boy I need your touch
Your love, kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I can't deny Deny

I play it off but I'm dreaming of you
(But I'm dreaming of you, babe)
And I'll keep my cool,
but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (oh)
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near (ahh)
Goodbye and I choke (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (hey, hey, hey)
Though I try to hide it, it's clear (say it Lord)
My world crumbles when you are not near (Lord, the Lord kisses us)

Goodbye and I choke (I'm choking)
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
-Macy Gray "I TRY"

WORDS

Music, what would we do without it? There is so much to it. Know a song that inspires you? A song that picks you up? How about one that makes you mad? Yes music can do that. Its one of the reasons I enjoy it. I wonder what the artist was thinking when they wrote the song. Was it a dramatic experience or just a scene or nothing at all it was just a word that they focused on. It makes it very interesting. I will from time to time put out lyrics out there that I find inspiring, sometimes lyrics that point to the way I am feeling, other times I just like the words. Never the less I would like to share the words (www.lyrics.com) that these talented artist wrote. I think it will add a different twist to my blog.

ALBERT

LOOP HOLES

The common man never knows about these things. But there is always a way around/out of something. Seems like "Honest" people just do what they are told and dont try to sneak around. Well leave it to the "Sneaky" to try to figure out ways out. Everything from Taxes to Crime laws have loop holes. Is it bad to take advantage of them? If not then does that make the "Honest" people Stupid or Dumb? As I was getting ready to register for some classes at my community college, I asked my boss if it would be a problem to alter my schedule. She asked me if I was going to try and brush up and get out of where I work. I know she was joking but I still told her no I am doing this to get out of paying my student loans (http://www.salliemae.com/). She looked at me puzzled. I explained to her that I could take 6 hours at a college/university and that would defer my student loans. I also mentioned how it was way way cheaper for me to pay for 6 hours each semester than to pay my student loan. If I go to school I save about $5000 per year for a cost of about $600 to my community college. She was shocked, then asked how long can you do that for? Well I told her I did a bit of research and apparently I can do this forever! Yep, good ole Loop Holes. She was even more surprized by that answer and said: "Wow, I didnt know that!" Apparently not many do. After getting my degree, I never thought myself as continuing school but given the alternatives, I guess I can be a Professional Student as well. Well its been 10 years after getting my degree. I started paying after graduation and then ran into some road blocks when I tried to purchase my first home. Turns out that the amount I owed (not a small amount) was hurting my debt ratio. I looked into it and found that if I took some courses I would defer my loan and in the banks eyes the debt wasnt there yet so didnt count against me. So I enrolled. Then I figured out that I could do this forever and thus here I am the Professional Student enrolling for another semester of Classes. Got to say I am running out of courses that interest me but wait I think I found another LOOP HOLE!

HAIL TO THE VICTORS!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! http://www.fathertimes.net/auldlangsyne.htm

I am a big College Football Fan with the Texas Longhorns being my favorite team. I enjoy it for the traditions and the rivalries. Nothing compares with its History, the fans in the stands the bands playing and the clashes on the field! With over 2400 games played by both Texas and Michigan, the teams had never met. Today they did. The first time ever in Texas' first time ever Rose Bowl appearance! How could that be with these 2 Storied Universities? The History: President Ford and his association with Michigan (grad) and Lyndon Johnson with Texas (though he never attended), Michigan one of the famous college fight song - Hail to the Victors (http://www.umich.edu/~info/inside.html?http://www.umich.edu/~info/victors.html) and Texas with the most famous School Song - The Eyes of Texas (http://www.mackbrown-texasfootball.com/pages/proudtrads/eyestexas.html), Michigan with one of the most recognized helmet and Texas with the most recognized hand signal (Hook 'em Horns! http://www.mackbrown-texasfootball.com/pages/proudtrads/hookem.html). They said the Horns didnt belong. That they were over rated and that they were breaking Tradition (Pac-10 vs Big 10). Well Michigan was up 37-35 with 2 seconds left in the game. Texas kicks a 37 yard field goal to Win 38-37! Congratulations Horns! You proved that you do belong and that you can win the big games! So all Hail to the Victors! The Texas Longhorns, the champions of the West!

http://www.mackbrown-texasfootball.com/pages/proudtrads/texfight.html

HOOK 'EM! \m/
ALBERT