YOU GOT A FRIEND

Hey, aint it good to know that you've got a friend?
People can be so cold.
They'll hurt you and desert you.
Well they'll take your soul if you let them.
Oh yeah, but don't you let them. (You Got A Friend - James Taylor)

If only it was like the slogan and you will hear "YOU GOT A FRIEND" each time you meet someone new. Been thinking more and more about my friends. I recently went thru a Divorce and was in need of some friends to stand by me. Things have changed so much. If you ask my x-wife she will tell you that my friends cost a huge burdon on my marriage. Though I tend to see it otherwise. To me they were the ones that helped my marriage last as long as it did! See I see friends in a totally different light. To me a friend is someone that I can trust with my entire life. Someone that I know has my back, someone that puts me before themselves. Someone that is not selfish. Most people would say how can you ask for such a thing. Simple, I say because thats how I treat my friends. I am not selfish and my interest is always thier best interest. Mind you many think this is ridiculous seeing that a friend is an "aquaintance." Those to me are not friends and though I use the word frequently sometimes it is used loosely. The way I see it, I have very little friends for most are not willing to sacrafice the ultimate being of ME. Yea, I would do this for my few friends, sacrifice myself for them. In fact there is little that I wouldn't do for them. I hope my actions so far in life have proven this to them. As I would always tell my x-wife, "I can lose everything but a friend is someone who I will have forever!"

BLUE SKIES

I was blue, just as blue as I could be
Ev'ry day was a cloudy day for me
Then good luck came a-knocking at my door
Skies were gray but they're not gray anymore Blue Skies - Rod Stewart

They say that every low has its high. After traveling through some lows, I have seemed to find my high. Little did I know. How could I since it seemed just like any other. The kind that I seem to walk away from. I wasn't about to give it that satisfaction. Persistance or was it the stubborn bull in you? Whatever it was it worked. The minutes turned to hours and here we are today. Can't wait to see what is next. Smiles and laughter has replaced those endless loney nights. The days are brighter with not a cloud in sight! Nothing but Blue Skies!

THE AVERAGE GUY

I really dont do these but found this one a bit interesting. Goes to show what I always say that I am just your average guy. HOW BORING! I always wanted to be more than just an average guy! Was very content with my circle of good friends but always wanted more...

ALBERT

All American Kid

Popular but not plastic. Athletic but not a jock. Smart but not a brain. You were well rounded and well liked in high school.

Who Were You In High School?

PEACEFUL SOUL AT REST

...And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, she's got me with
Nothing left to win
And nothing else to lose (With or Without You - U2)

Its 4:00 AM and all I can think of is you. Why aren't you on? As I ponder, I recall vividly the image of you laying next to me just like you were not too long ago. Asleep. The body at rest as I see the your chest expand with every breath it took. The thoughts of waking you up but then again how could I do it when you were so peacefully sleeping. I recall the glow of the light encircling your body as it layed curled up and searching for warmth. I couldn't help but reach over and wrap my arm around you. The feel of my touch made your body react. The spark of warmth as my hand touched the skin sent chills running down your spine. Oh the thoughts raced through my head as I saw your body react to the touch. How I wished to wake you up but as I remove my hand I just layed there basking in the ever lasting image of your peaceful soul at rest!

-ALBERT

MIDNIGHT RENDEZVOUS

Just when I had gotten used to it, it was gone. All I had left was this empty space next to me. I miss the touch of your hand, the feel of your kiss, and the sound of your voice! I loved the feel of holding you in my arms as your rested your head on my chest and you layed there with your arms wrapped around my body. You made me feel like I had all your trust and all your whole world in my arms. I want to protect you, to make you feel safe in my arms just like that safety a child feels with his Dad. Did you feel it? I want to give you the world, I want to be your all. Do you want it? Who knows when we feel it and get it again. For now I'll see you at our little Midnight Rendezvous!

-ALBERT

TRUE FRIENDS

When you're weary, feeling small
When tears are in your eyes,
I will dry them all
I'm on your side, oh
When times get rough
And friends just can't be found (Bridge over Troubled Water – Simon & Garfunkle)


I got the number of an old friend, a friend who I had not talked nor seen in 15 years. That is a long time and I pondered whether to call or not. My thoughts drifted to a time in my life when he was an impact. I wondered what they had been up to and what is going on now. Sometimes memories should just be kept in the past and lives should move on. I ignored those thoughts as I placed the call to my past. I met my friend for dinner and drinks. The drive memory lane was great things that I had forgotten were now becoming an instant replay in my mind. The hours pasted and the evening became short and we both wondered why it had been 15 years since we last spoke! I am glad I got to find a long lost friend. They were important in shaping my life and into who I am today. Friends are so hard to find now-a-days! I don’t have many friends but I do have a lot of acquaintances. Why I don’t know maybe my thoughts of friends is different that others. To me a friend carries a heavy task. Maybe that’s not fair and I shouldn’t do that but it is what I strive for so figure my friends should be able to do the same. A friend is one that doesn’t judge. I read an email once that said a friend is someone who is willing to stand by you and help when it is needed but a True Friend is one that is sitting with you in jail laughing at what just happened. That’s what I strive to be for my friends. Stand in the middle of it with them all along laughing, crying, and singing as we sink together. A friend who is doesn’t judge and walks together fighting the same battle not competing against each other in it. A friend who’s goal is willing to risk it all for the sake of the friendship. Running into my old friend reminded me of being what friendship is. “When you're down and out, when you're on the street, when evening falls so hard I will comfort you. I'll take your part, oh when darkness comes and pain is all around.” I need fixing and I am searching for my True Friends.

-ALBERT

FIX ME

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you Coldplay - Fix You

Theres seems to be a cure for everything now-a-days. A magic pill to fix anything. But yet we don't have a cure for the loneliness. What brought it? A void an emptiness. Guess we should look at it that way. That basically what we feel is that that has gone away. Could we have been so lucky that we did have it at one time the joy and happiness? Our minds filled with wonderful thoughts - the thoughts of invincibility and the thoughts of forever! Sadly it wasn't forever. Nothing in life is and thus it brings us the void called loneliness. I sit here alone on this Valentines Day with the thoughts running through my head of the fun and joy that I once enjoyed. With a heavy heart's desire to feel that LOVE again! The feels of a soft kiss caressing the neck. The feel of a hand on my face as a pair of eyes look into my soul. The feel of joy from the wisper of "I love you..." ringing in my ear. Oh how the heart cries "fix me!"

ALBERT